Monday, 1 December 2008
Thursday, 20 November 2008
She was christened on 16th Nov 2008 looking cute in her christening dress. Craig made her cake and my gran iced it then my contribution towards it was the pink decoration round the top and her name and date of christening wrote on the top in pink icing :) Her godparents are my mam Jacqui, Craig, brothers Dene and Ian and my best mate Laura. Laura has come up for a week but dont want her to go home again :(
Was my 21st birthday on 18th Nov...had an Ann Summers party and had people round but a few people dropped out at the last minute so who needs enemies when i have friends like that!!! Had a great night anyway and ordered a couple of things from the brochure :p
Wednesday, 30 April 2008
Thursday, 17 April 2008
I aint slept with anyone else apart from Matt so i know for definite that he is the father. I was debating whether to tell him or not cos i knew how he would react and would probably cause trouble. Anyway in the end i decided he had a right to know so i called him up and told him, the reaction i got was kind of expected but still upset me so i hung up and burst into tears :( He said he wanted me to get rid otherwise he would come and kick the shit out of me and the baby!! After about 5 mins he called me back and was nice as pie apologising saying he was shocked but he doesnt want another kid etc and was telling me about work and how his parents are doing. After an hour he went and decided he would add me to MSN so we chatted on there for a bit, next thing i know i have some girl adding me asking why i was fucking with Matts head etc and how did i know for definite it was his kid, she then adds Matt to the convo and tells him she is going to smash my jaw or something cos i was bugging her (didnt even say anything to the lass!!) Came offline cos i don't need people threatening to beat me up etc!! He then kept calling the house phone and i didnt want to speak to him so my mam answered, he said something about he would report me for theft (he was on about some lasses address he had wrote down in one of my notebooks i once had at his which is now in my bedroom) I got annoyed with him keep calling so i spoke to him and asked why he was getting this girl involved cos it has nothing to do with her and i didnt need it right now. Was on phone for about 20 mins and still couldnt get it through to him that i wasnt bothered if he was in the babies life or not and wasnt expecting anything off him!! I said i was going as i was tired so he said he would speak to me some other time as we need to sort this out and wants me to meet him after he finishes work on Sunday but aint going and told him so, cos aint going just so he can beat the shit outta me and dont want to be anywhere near him right now.
I aint going to let him or anybody else spoil this for me!! I have my family and friends around me (and Laura in Nottingham lol) which is all i need so if he doesnt want to be in his babies life that is his choice. Been to Blyth today and my mam has bought me a "Pregnancy and Birth" book and a couple of pregnancy magazines so am busy reading them :D I will keep you posted on how we are doing and al post a pic of my scan when i get it...as Laura would say HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Monday, 14 April 2008
I have just finished a 2 week mandatory course through the jobcentre called Learning Choices - Gateway to work and it was boring as hell but if i didnt go they could stop my dole money :( All we did was update our CV's, jobsearch and have a couple of people come in and give us tips on how to sell ourselves in interviews and what not to do in interviews. That was all in the first week, the second week we all had 2 or 3 days work placements where you go to a company and work for them to give you experience and hopefully get a job out of it. Two people off my course did get jobs out of their placements the rest didnt lol. I was put in a charity shop for 2 days and all i did was price books and clothes up and make sure everything was in size order on the rails (i could hardly contain my excitement!!!) Anyway there was a couple of fit lads on my course so atleast there was some eye candy lol. One of the guys was called Tony and he was a really nice guy and made everyone laugh, we swapped numbers and were texting loads and we going to keep in touch still and see where things go :D
Swapped rooms with my brother so i get the slightly bigger room and have decorated it how i wanted it (one wall mint green and the other three lilac) and it looks pretty good just need to buy new bedding, a blind and some nice foil curtains i have seen in au naturale. Bought a new double bed as have wanted one for ages but there wouldnt have been room in my old bedroom, now i just need someone to share it with seen as i am still single :(
Thats about it really, had a few interviews since i came back but aint been successful as of yet but fingers crossed i get this job i had an interview for on friday...i will keep you posted!!
Thursday, 6 March 2008
Monday, 3 March 2008
The jobcentre are annoying me at the minute as they have underpaid me and didnt explain why. I was on national insurance contribution based allowance but it has run out and when I last signed on they should have explained to me that I needed to change my claim to income based allowance but they never did!! So I was expecting my normal amount of money this week but when I went to the bank it was about £40 odd short and I have things I need to pay which aint going to get paid now which means I will have people after me for money!! This is the second time they have messed up my claim and it is the same woman this time as it was last time. Last time she never put it on the system that I had signed on so I didnt receive my money, everytime I go now I always watch her put it on the system. Think am going to complain about her cos she obviously doesn't know what she is doing and I bet I aint the only persons claim she has messed up!!
Laura is back with Lee and has been since sometime last week. He came over a couple of days ago to talk with her and was here for about 5 hours so they must have had alot to talk about lol. I was sat upstairs out the way for a couple of hours (cos he doesnt talk when I am around for some reason!!) then got really cold and hungry so went and sat downstairs. They aint seen each other since but have been texting loads and she might be going to stay at his for a week at the end of March when his Mum goes away!!
Will post again once I am back in Newcastle and if I get time to inbetween looking after my Mam and clearing my brothers room xx
Saturday, 16 February 2008
Signed on Wednesday and Laura handed in her NVQ to her college as she was meant to have finished it but she was stuck on one question and was going to do it when we got home and email her work to her tutor but she aint done it yet as think she is still stuck...either that or she just cant be bothered to do it lol. On the way back for the bus home we passed a flower stall and Laura started going on about how nobody had sent her roses this year and was gutted so she give me £2.50 and made we walk back to the flower stall and get her one lol.
I got 2 Valentines cards this year, one off this guy called Omy from Hull who I met once when I was visting my dad and the other one was off a guy called Richard who is my pen pal :D they both fancy the pants off me (what can I say, you either got it or you aint lol). Laura bugged all these guys to send her Valentines cards so she ended up getting 7 in total so far and think she is still expecting 2 more. Didn't do anything for Valentines Day this year as have nobody to love me this year :( Laura and I just spent it with each other relaxing at home watching movies. It was my Mam and Craigs wedding anniversary today and also Lauras Mam and Dads wedding anniversary!!
Yesterday we went up to Lauras nans house as we got a new telly so they were getting the one we had before. The seats in the back had to be put down so the telly and the stand could fit in the boot. I was sat right on the edge of the seat and bent over like the hunch back of notre dame so by the time we got up there I had back, leg and neck ache :( Stayed up there for a couple of hours then we had to go shopping and get back for the dogs, didnt do much for the rest of the afternoon...sat and watched Lost Boys on dvd with Laura while her mam had a couple of hours sleep. When her dad got back we walked up to the chinese for something to eat as don't think anybody could be bothered to cook lol. Laura likes this guy called Omar who works in our local co-op and he asked to see her the other day but when we went down he was too busy. He was working last night so we decided to go back down about 9.50pm to catch him when he finished work. We didnt want to seem like we were stalking him or anything so we waited on the road next to the co-op as you can see the lights from the co-op in the shop window across the road. When we saw the shutters going down we casually walked past like we had just come from a friends house and he said "hi" and we replied but carried on walking. Cos we didnt stop he shouted after us that he wasnt working anymore so we could stop and chat to him. He started talking to Laura and you could tell he was proper flirting with her and was hinting that he wanted her to go back to his with him. He tried to use the chat up line "there aint no stars in the sky tonight, they are all in your eyes" we both creased up and Laura was like is that one of your chat up lines. Well anyway they got chatting and apparently he is coming up here on Tuesday to see her not that I think he will actually turn up to be honest but he might. They said their goodbyes and he shook her hand and wouldnt let go and started dragging her towards his messing about so she grabbed my hand and said we come as a package, he said he didnt mind if we came as a package (I mean which guy wouldnt say no to 2 girls coming back to their place?!?!) As we were walking back to Lauras house there was a man and woman stood at the bottom of her street, the guy was pissed out of his head and walked up to Laura saying "oOoOo your my kinda gal" then hugged her and then came to me and hugged me and apologised lol. The woman he was with was his aunty who said he wasnt any harm he was just a bit drunk, kinda knew that as he was stumbling around and stepped on my toe :( Stood there talking to them for about 20 mins as they were funny and then he was walking off trying to flag down a taxi or to get the bus so his aunty walked after him and we came home laughing our heads off. Went upstairs about 11 and I lay and read for half hour and Laura went on her laptop, was falling asleep so put my book down and closed my eyes...Laura came off her computer about 1am then went sleep. Not doing much today I don't think apart from house work before her parents get home and thats it, watching Ant and Dec tonight :D
Tuesday, 5 February 2008
Aint been up to alot really just the usual, chilling, job centre, work directions and sleeping!! Lee (Laura's ex) came round on Tuesday last week to talk to her about stuff and try to sort things out but he hardly even spoke so I thought I should go upstairs out the way and he spoke a little but not much apparently. Anyway after about half an hour I came back downstairs cos Laura had txt me saying I could come back down lol. We kept having little digs at him about this Tash girl he finished Laura for, I said something like "what is it with guys and younger girls these days" because my ex had cheated on me with younger girls before and I don't think Lee was very impressed with that comment but I didn't care to be honest :D He txt her the next day or something saying he didn't know if it would be worth getting back together because he wouldn't have much time with work and cadets. He is so playing with her feelings and it is getting to her but she always puts on a hard front but I wasn't born yesterday.
Signed on on Wednesday and then when I got back I called them to see if they had changed the bank account that my money goes into. My bank account is overdrawn so if my money goes into there it means I won't have any money to spend so Laura agreed for me to get my money put into her account. They hadn't changed it even though the week before I had filled out the form to do it so I had to go back in that day to fill out the form again and this time they changed it thank god.
Didn't really do much for the rest of the week, went food shopping on Friday with Laura and her mam and think we just relaxed for the rest of the weekend. Yesterday we went out to Morrisons to grab a couple of things for tea and Laura treated us all to McDonalds then we came home and sat on laptops for most of the night (well when the internet was working we did).
Went to town today as I had to put some money in the bank for my Mam and had to get a couple of other things. Laura also had to hand out some CV's so we killed two birds with one stone. When we came back we wrote out the Valentines cards we are sending to people and watched Jeremy Kyle on tv, we both had tears in ours because this woman was on telling you how this little 13 month old boy had been physically abused by his father and had bruises all over his body but his mother did nothing about it. He was then in hospital on life support after his father had swung him by his ankles then thrown him against the wall :( Think we just relaxing for the rest of the day because its raining outside plus we have no money left lol.
Sunday, 27 January 2008
Laura and I sat in the back, her nan drove and Nicki was in passenger seat, went to the garage for petrol and a drink each then off we went :D Both Lauras nan and her mam smoke so we were sat in the back freezing everytime they opened the windows to have a smoke. They don't smoke at the same time either, one smokes then closes their window and just as you start to warm up the other opens their window and has a smoke :( At one point we had this blue citroen saxo behind us which had 2 guys in, the one in the passenger seat was good looking the driver had big sticky out ears lol. Me and Laura looked round to see what they looked like and were commenting to each other about them then her nan kept looking at them through her rear view mirror and her mam turned round in her seat to look at them was well embarrasing lol.
Arrived safe and sound in West Sussex and dropped her nan off at her mams house and we went to Lauras friends house (Sonia and Sabrina's) and stayed there for a couple of hours. Picked up loads of baby clothes, a pram and travel cot that Sonia didnt need anymore as her kid has grown out of them now or never even wore them. Sonia has a girl who is nearly 2 years old called Sky, who had a twin but she died soon after birth as she was premature and Sabrina has a boy called Conrad who is nearly 2 years old as well they both well cute. Left there just after 1pm to go pick up her nan up and go for something to eat. We decided to go to a burger shop and get something that we could eat in the car going home to save time. We both fell asleep then got woken up by her mam and nan worrying cos they had missed the junction we needed to come off at so we came off at the next junction and headed back down so we could get on to the correct junction. As we went on to our junction these two cars that had been modified and were dead loud came speeding past and scared the shit out of her nan so she screamed and took her hands off the steering wheel so Lauras mam was getting scared and kept telling her to put her hands back on the steering wheel, Laura was pissing herself laughing and i was just too tired to even do anything lol.
We got to the M1 and were just driving along in the 3rd lane when a silver BMW wanted past so her nan pulled over so they could pass. As they passed her nan stuck her middle finger up at them and it had about 4 or 5 lads in it and they were all laughing. They pulled back and the next thing we know they are passing by us again but they all had their camera phones out this time taking pictures or recording a video of us so Laura hid under her coat and I just looked away and looked at Laura!!!
Got back to Lauras nans house about 8pm and unloaded the car and then sat and talked for about half hour before Nicki tried to call Kev to come pick us up. While we were waiting Olivia woke up so Laura went and picked her up and gave her her bottle, then I had my first hold of her and she started crying after about 5 mins so i passed her back to Laura lol.
Got back, had something to eat then started to watch house of wax but we were falling asleep so turned it off and went to sleep.
Woke up about 9.30am this morning and have stayed in our pjs all day (nothing new i know!!), went for baths then put our pjs back on and just sat on our laptops now.
Friday, 25 January 2008
Today we are just relaxing because going to West Sussex tomorrow morning with Laura's mam and her nan to see family and friends they have down there and have to be up mega early. Should be nice to see where she used to live and meet her friends that she always talks about. I will post again after we been down there.
Friday, 18 January 2008
Wednesday we had to be up early as I had to go and sign then Laura had to go and see this guy at a place like the jobcentre which help her look for a job etc. Nicki dropped us in town as it was her day off again, so once we finished at jobcentre we had like an hour before we had to go and do Lauras thing so we just walked around town looking in shops. Came home and just chilled for the rest of the day as we were both shattered to do anything lol.
On Thursday we didnt get up until 12pm(ish) and just as we came downstairs and opened the curtains the post came. My step dad had sent me the USB cable for my phone and some post that had come for me up there which was mainly debts :( There was like 3 letters for Laura which when she opened were also debts so we spent the next hour on the phone calling them all up trying to sort them out, left us on a proper downer all day cos we didnt realise how much we actually owed people. Stayed in pjs all day until about 5ish and then i went for a bath so I could wash my hair and have a wash. We were sat upstairs when we heard some lads shouting outside so we jumped up to the window and Laura saw about 6 lads in hoodies running off, they had just smashed this guys windscreen who lives opposite!!! So Laura went outside to tell the guy what she saw and where they had gone, next thing we know this black car comes up (which had also just had his back window smashed in) and picks him up and they speed off with snooker cues :s They return about 10 mins later but there is like 4 of them by this time and they stand outside waiting for the police to come. Two police officers arrive and one goes across to the guys and the other comes and asks us if we saw anything. Laura did so she gave a statement and just as she was telling the officer 3 lads in hoodies walk up the boulevard and were getting a good look at who we all were. She was given an incident number in case any trouble happened after they left cos they aint very friendly round here if you report them!!! Went Tesco to do some shopping at 12.15am as we get round quicker and got back around 1.30am and went straight to bed.
Was up at 8am to get ready as we were going to see Lauras nan and aunty again. Olivia has changed loads in the last couple of days, shes still very cute and had the hickups was well funny.
Stayed for a couple of hours then started to drive home, kinda took a detour and there have been floods recently so we came across this big puddle and Nicki wasnt sure if she would make it through or not but me and Laura were like just go through it and we video clipped it on our phones :D Then went another way and went down this country road and there were loads of fields flooded loads so Laura made her mam stop so she could get out and take some pictures. Then there was another road we went down and there was a sign saying "road ahead closed" and there were cones so you couldnt get passed but guess what...Laura got out the car and moved the cone so we could get passed :D but we had to turn round again as a little bit further up the road was mega flooded, was well funny and we didnt realise there was a guy in the field near the road watching us lol. Went and saw this house that is built on stilts and just as well it is cos otherwise their house would have been flooded, they already lost their garden as it was underwater!!! Stopped just down the road so me and Laura could get out and get some pictures of this other river that had burst its bank and she needed the toilet so bad that she squatted in the corner, couldnt stop laughing cos thought she had grown out of peeing in public lol. Came home and we going to do another unit of her mams NVQ later as it needs to be handed in this weekend.
Monday, 14 January 2008
Nothing much has really been going on today, we went jobcentre for 9.30am as i had an appointment to see someone about changing my claim, its all changed now and i sign on wednesdays at 10.10am.
Sunday, 13 January 2008
So here is me and Laura rushing around calling for a taxi and getting dressed and re-applying our make up :D Got to his for about 1am and there were like 9 guys there all older than us but Laura knew most of them so it was ok, we sat down and opened a drink and this guy Trevor made us apple pie and custard when we had already told him we didn't want anything to eat so we passed it to someone else. This guy Andy had Lauras and was totally hammered so he ended up dropping it all over Laura's jeans which she werent happy about and all over the floor!! It got to about 3am and someone started on Bens personal life so he asked them all to leave which they werent happy about and things started getting heated and voices raised lol so I went in the kitchen out the way :p Anyway they left so we stayed for another drink before booking a taxi to go home, got back here about 4am and went straight to bed cos we were shattered. Got woken up this morning by the cats fighting in the passage and the dogs whinging downstairs in the kitchen cos they don't like being on their own and Lauras parents had gone shopping so we got up about 11am and are still sat in our pjs now and probably will be until later when we will need to get dressed to take the DVD's back to the shop.
Saturday, 12 January 2008
We were meant to be going to Laura's mates house for his birthday party but its in St Anns which aint the safest place for two girls to be walking around alone in cos we could get shot or stabbed or something lol so we decided not to go and just watch some dvds together instead. Her mum aint feeling very well either so Laura doesnt want to go very far in case her mum needs her.
Friday, 11 January 2008
We decided this morning we couldnt actually afford to go out but then Laura decided on her own she wanted to go out then no matter how much I told her I couldnt really afford to go out she wouldnt drop it so in the end I went with her lol. We met her friends Kayleigh and Nikki and some guy in Bla Bla Bar, had one cocktail then moved on to Wetherspoons and stayed there until last bus home. The guy who was with us was seriously doing my head in cos he never shut up about weed and was trying to be funny but was more annoying than funny!! I had my phone on the table as I was expecting a txt then he lent over and took my phone and I was like give me my fucking phone back, Laura went skits at him saying she dont know you so she dnt trust you with her phone so give her it back and she was getting really stressed at him so went and stood outside. Anyway we had a laugh so it was alright in the end, we went for the last bus which was at 12.05am and we have ordered in burger and chips as we have the munchies so just waiting for that to arrive :D
Have to go jobcentre tomorrow sometime cos i need to get my claim changed to down here so i can still get my money otherwise am going to be skint :(
Thursday, 10 January 2008
We are still sat in our pjs cos there is nobody else in and we have nobody to impress. Laura started to do her NVQ so I peeled the potatoes and carrots for tea as I am cooking us shepherds pie, if neither of us post comments after today you know why now...i poisoned us with my cooking!!! Nar should be fine I am a good little cook even if I do say so myself!!
Had no phone calls today so hopefully she has got the point and decided to leave me alone now but my number will probably still change soon.
Wednesday, 9 January 2008
Tuesday, 8 January 2008
Split with my boyfriend Matt on New Years Day cos he had just spent the weekend in Coventry with some girl called Vikki and cheated on me :( I had been with him for a year and two months, he had cheated on me before but cos I loved him I took him back again but not this time for definite!! I had been ringing him and texting him asking what he wanted doing with the stuff he still has at my house and i wanted the phone back I bought him that we agreed he would give me back when we split and obviously he won't give me it back now, so now I have this Vikki keep ringing me shouting abuse down the phone telling me to keep my hands off him or she will come up to Newcastle and kick my f***ing head in etc etc. Kindly asked Matt to tell her to back off and leave me alone but she still carried on ringing me so I reported her to Vodafone as she was calling off an unkown number and now they have a record of her number. I now have the police involved as the calls keep on coming and she has no right to get involved with this, at the end of the day it was mine and Matts relationship and i was just trying to sort things out. I don't want him back so she has nothing to worry about so just wish she would leave me alone.
Am now in Nottingham staying with my best mate for a while cos I need the break for a start and plus being here will help me get over him cos we have such a laugh together and it will take my mind off him!!