Wednesday, 30 April 2008

Scan piccies

Right well i went to Surestart and came out with loads of leaflets on pregnancy lol (good bedtime reading i guess :p) Cos we thought i was further on that what everyone else was in the room the midwife rang the doctors to see if they had any space the next day on the booking sessions so i could get my blood tests done. They did so my mam took me down to my appointment and the midwife there took my blood and filled out my maternity notes. When she took my blood i told her i didnt want to see the needle or how much blood she took out, i could hear it being sucked into the tubes and when i saw them i was nearly sick lol. She then got me to lie on the table so she could feel my belly and listen for the heartbeat....we heard the heartbeat and i got well excited :D

Next day i went for my first scan and i couldnt go to the toilet before i went in so was sat crossing my legs but when i went in she said my bladder wasnt full enough so she got me a jug of water and told me to drink it all and she would get me back in 10 mins later. I went back in and the picture was clearer so it was all good. We saw the baby and all its major organs were fine and it had all its fingers and toes which made my day...i was scared in case i had done any damage to the baby seen as i never even knew i was wouldnt open its legs so we could see what sex it was so was gutted!! The scan confirmed i was 22 weeks gone and my due date is 27th August...this means we have a month less to get everything ready seen as i am further on that what we first thought. Anyway my next scan is in 5 weeks time but need to go and see the midwife tomorrow for a check up i think so see how that goes.

Below are my scan pictures...the top one is the baby lying on its side with arms by its side, second one is with its hand to its mouth and the bottom one is it lying on its front and the white line is its spine :D

Thursday, 17 April 2008

Some News...

...a couple of days ago i dropped a sample off at the doctors as i thought i might be pregnant, was told the results would take 2-3 days to come through. I rang them up yesterday to see if they had got them back yet and they had and it confirmed that i am pregnant!!! Not sure exactly how far gone i am but was told to go to Surestart this monday coming at 10.30 and they will give me information on what to do next and hopefully set me up with my first scan and midwife. It didnt quite sink in but now it has and am kinda excited but nervous at the same time cos i wasnt expecting this but its done now :D
I aint slept with anyone else apart from Matt so i know for definite that he is the father. I was debating whether to tell him or not cos i knew how he would react and would probably cause trouble. Anyway in the end i decided he had a right to know so i called him up and told him, the reaction i got was kind of expected but still upset me so i hung up and burst into tears :( He said he wanted me to get rid otherwise he would come and kick the shit out of me and the baby!! After about 5 mins he called me back and was nice as pie apologising saying he was shocked but he doesnt want another kid etc and was telling me about work and how his parents are doing. After an hour he went and decided he would add me to MSN so we chatted on there for a bit, next thing i know i have some girl adding me asking why i was fucking with Matts head etc and how did i know for definite it was his kid, she then adds Matt to the convo and tells him she is going to smash my jaw or something cos i was bugging her (didnt even say anything to the lass!!) Came offline cos i don't need people threatening to beat me up etc!! He then kept calling the house phone and i didnt want to speak to him so my mam answered, he said something about he would report me for theft (he was on about some lasses address he had wrote down in one of my notebooks i once had at his which is now in my bedroom) I got annoyed with him keep calling so i spoke to him and asked why he was getting this girl involved cos it has nothing to do with her and i didnt need it right now. Was on phone for about 20 mins and still couldnt get it through to him that i wasnt bothered if he was in the babies life or not and wasnt expecting anything off him!! I said i was going as i was tired so he said he would speak to me some other time as we need to sort this out and wants me to meet him after he finishes work on Sunday but aint going and told him so, cos aint going just so he can beat the shit outta me and dont want to be anywhere near him right now.
I aint going to let him or anybody else spoil this for me!! I have my family and friends around me (and Laura in Nottingham lol) which is all i need so if he doesnt want to be in his babies life that is his choice. Been to Blyth today and my mam has bought me a "Pregnancy and Birth" book and a couple of pregnancy magazines so am busy reading them :D I will keep you posted on how we are doing and al post a pic of my scan when i get Laura would say HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE!!!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, 14 April 2008

Been Busy...

and thats why i haven't posted on my blog since i came back to Newcastle (well thats my excuse and i am sticking to it :p) Since my last blog not alot has happened really, not that it ever does around here lol.
I have just finished a 2 week mandatory course through the jobcentre called Learning Choices - Gateway to work and it was boring as hell but if i didnt go they could stop my dole money :( All we did was update our CV's, jobsearch and have a couple of people come in and give us tips on how to sell ourselves in interviews and what not to do in interviews. That was all in the first week, the second week we all had 2 or 3 days work placements where you go to a company and work for them to give you experience and hopefully get a job out of it. Two people off my course did get jobs out of their placements the rest didnt lol. I was put in a charity shop for 2 days and all i did was price books and clothes up and make sure everything was in size order on the rails (i could hardly contain my excitement!!!) Anyway there was a couple of fit lads on my course so atleast there was some eye candy lol. One of the guys was called Tony and he was a really nice guy and made everyone laugh, we swapped numbers and were texting loads and we going to keep in touch still and see where things go :D
Swapped rooms with my brother so i get the slightly bigger room and have decorated it how i wanted it (one wall mint green and the other three lilac) and it looks pretty good just need to buy new bedding, a blind and some nice foil curtains i have seen in au naturale. Bought a new double bed as have wanted one for ages but there wouldnt have been room in my old bedroom, now i just need someone to share it with seen as i am still single :(
Thats about it really, had a few interviews since i came back but aint been successful as of yet but fingers crossed i get this job i had an interview for on friday...i will keep you posted!!